独舞者

lico有个博客，算是她的公众面孔----那是个群博网站，她被邀去写。她左看看右看看，发现周围的邻居们不是精英男便是才色女，压力好大啊!

lico不敢造次，怕给邻居们添麻烦，免得今后别人以与她为伍为耻。

她决定板着面孔写博，每次写时还忍着不吃饼干，最好化上妆穿一制服，直着腰板子钉在书桌前，一手扼住命运的咽喉，一手拼命地打字，同时愤怒地思考着人生。

“咳，也没稿费，折腾什么呀？”一次好友达米安问。他丫从不写博，有一facebook账号，200多个千奇百怪的朋友要死不活地挂在上面。每天晚上他就在那儿混点，可也没见他家门前好友如梭来着？lico寻思着这是不是就是那个“最愚蠢的一代”的意思，她又被及时地深深地刺激了，打算立刻动手写篇批判达米安类同学的博文，当然了，还是放在公众博客上。

“咱们境界不一样。”lico说，她正在心里打着新的博客腹稿，胡乱地搪塞达米安。

“什么什么境界的？你facebook上就8个朋友。哈哈哈！”达米安大笑，他的笑声充满了洋洋的得意和小心眼儿的味道。

“come on！”lico生气了，“我以前在饭否上还有几百个呢，算了，不跟你说，咱们不是境界的问题，是国情的问题。”

“那你说说写博客有什么好的？ 也让我学学。” 达米安真讨厌，明摆着打岔。

“对于我们文化人来说，”lico决定先和这哥们划清个界限，“相互交流和自我表达是非常重要的。像烟瘾，一天不抽上几根就憋着慌，不写几个字就不舒服。”

“你不是有专栏吗？写博客和写专栏有什么区别？”达米安问。

“唉，真是的，秀才遇见兵。。。” lico不耐烦地想，这不很简单，秀才也是要吃饭的，专栏稿费能给餐桌增色添香啊！可既然是个秀才，便不能这么解释事情，要扬秀避俗。

“这是个严肃的问题，区别大着呢。”lico说，她决定引用一博王------博客点击率之王最近一篇博文中的观点，“专栏是‘要你说’，博客是‘你要说’。你看看，这里的境界也是天壤之别。”

“原来是这样呀。”达米安点点头，看上去被哄服了。lico心满意足地笑了，她放下心来，键盘上开始十指如飞。

“这些都是‘你要说’的？”达米安好奇地凑过头来，看着lico公众博客的主页面。

“嗯，其实，”lico决定老实坦白，“其实我还有一个私人博客。我每天都在那儿瞎写来着，那儿才都是我要说的。”

“什么？您丫还两个博客？！”达米安惊叫着从电脑边跌了下去。

“都写些什么？哪些人在看？” 他的声音从地板传来。

“咳，不知道都谁在看，才不管呢。我用了化名。” lico说，“最关键的是，博客链接上有我前男友的博。”

“他也写博？肯定了，您丫只爱文艺男青年，爱一个分手一个。”达米安说。“他的博也是私人博客？”

“对啊。我每天都看，分手之后。”

“为什么？还惦记着？” 达米安从地上爬起来，四处张望，好像在找擦眼泪用的餐巾纸。

“看他博客能知道他每天大概过得怎样。” lico说。“看来他过得很不好，我也就放心了。”

余斯 男刊是什么意思？

lico 不能说专给男人看的，但也算那种男人喜欢看的刊物吧。

余斯 那不就是我们的《明镜周刊》吗？或者《时代周刊》？人家也没说自己是男刊啊。

lico 。。。《Esquire》算不算男刊？

余斯 算的话，应该叫gay刊。正点的直男哪儿会跑去从时尚杂志觅精神食粮呢？

lico 达米安就看时尚杂志！他就是个好直男呀。

余斯 您丫不是把他偷偷划到“gay友”里了吗？

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lico 哇咔咔，听说你们的名词居然有-性-！

余斯 好像是有。。。

lico 那你说我手里的圆珠笔是男的还是女的？

余斯 。。。。

lico 写起来顺手，经年不丢，常令我妙笔生花----它一定是gay也！！ 你们名词的性里有gay性吗？

余斯 。。。。。。。。。。。

余斯: 最近你邮箱里都有些什么呀？

lico: 都是催账单。 我都不敢拆封看。

余斯: 除了催账单呢？

lico: 还能有什么。。。

余斯: 我送你的生日礼物还没寄到呀？

lico: 哦？！谢谢！ 你送我啥了？

余斯: 这个不能告诉你。。。。不能保证你会喜欢，但肯定是你需要的!

lico: 。。。。。。防皱霜？

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余斯 你在脸上折腾些什么呢？

lico 化妆呀。我们日本不化妆出门就跟裸胸出门一样，很不礼貌的。

余斯 我觉得你根本不用化妆，就很美。

lico 所以说，西方人喜欢的东方女性都很丑！

余斯 那你要化成什么样才算好了呢？

lico 直到把lico化成monalico（蒙娜丽可）为止！

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余斯 你在看啥书呢？

lico 《时尚巴比伦》。

余斯 你太丢人啦！ 我建议把上面的fashion用纸贴起来。。。就剩下巴比伦几个字。

lico 不错呀，像本历史书啦。。。不过这封面上的一堆大腿怎么办？怎么解释才好？

余斯 巴比伦也是有女人的嘛。。。《巴比伦女性社会地位研究》！

[本日志已设置加密]

Lico: D! I m in trouble! SOS!

D: Say it.

Lico: Would you please find out 20 handsome boys in hat for me?! I need the photos immediately!!

D: Honey, I m working now.

Lico: You know, everybody knows you're such a good photographer.....

D: So what? We go to shower together?

Lico: Kao...

D: Call me daddy, I'd do it.

Lico: Deal! Daddy D, DD!

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Lico: Oh F F, you know in my last writing about you, i feel like we are twins.
 in a way i feel i could understand you as i understand myself
 in a way i feel you are my alter ego

F: oh thats strange Lico
    do u think so ?

Lico: you cannot say it to a poet....

lico终于要踏上环游世界80天的旅程了。在正式出发之前，她觉得有必要确定一下在各国各地的住宿问题----谁说出门在外靠朋友来着？虽然她的朋友大多是男生朋友。

msn上，

lico先遇到位意大利人，

“没问题！”意大利人看上去很兴奋，“你要来了就住我家，你想怎样就怎样。。。。（红心）。”

lico马上把窗口给关了。

lico又遇到位德国人，

“行啊，”德国人说，“把你的行程具体写一下，我再帮你计划计划。”

lico想，是挺靠谱也太麻烦。

lico又遇到个日本人，

“实在抱歉啊。”日本人说，“你知道我每天下班都在晚上十一二点以后，太太小孩在家，也一定会吵闹到您的。真的对不住您。请多原谅。”

lico气死了。

lico遇到位美国人，

“行！”美国人说，“我家房贷每月一千美金，你付一半，或者按天算？”

lico立马婉谢了。

lico最后遇到个法国人。

“可以可以，”法国人说，“我有三处地方，你要住哪儿？”

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ps lico最后的最后遇到位中国人，中国人会怎么说呢？如果分别为北京人和上海人，将有什么不同呢？哪位同学帮忙想想？ 评论会稍后显示。

lico wrote to God, "Dear God, I feel bad again. You told that its better learn how to cook blueberry cheese-cake by myself a few weeks ago, which I tried, still, unfortunately failed. " lico thought for a while, then added, "Do you think its really necessary for an intelligent woman doing things like this? I probably have no time for it.  And.....please forget chocolate, I'm definitely bad at this kind of sweet things, also never want to share with the others."

God replied, "Dear lico, I knew you are difficult! You're not only lazy, but also having no patience! Well," God added, " I think the best way is to give you back the ring you lost, which you asked for at the beginning, somehow turned to be chocolate then blueberry cheese-cake."

"Really?!" lico got excited, "Thank you! ..... But When? Where? and How? Is it the same one I had??" 

"Not sure, lico," God answered, " Too bad I don't remember what exactly you lost....the truth is you are always losing things! ..... Anyway there is a ring for you, which I can't promise could suit you well or not...Okay, lets say, this summer."

"But where?" lico asked.

"Somewhere." God smiled, going to finish the letter, " I'll help you get out of the time capsule now. Enjoy the flow, you'll figure out where it is soon."

尤伦更:  fan dien.

lico: Means Restaurant.

尤伦更: Not hotel？

lico: Oh..

"Dear God," lico wrote in an email, " I lost my favorite ring in May. I feel bad, please, please help me."

" Dear lico," God replied, " Don't worry. I'm going to send you a gift in June. Cheer up! "

In June, lico got a package, she opened it up, oh, its a chocolate.

"Dear God!" lico wrote again, "Thank you very much for the gift, but!" lico decided to be honest, she continued, "If you really want to cheer me up, give me back the ring, or, send something else..... I'm afraid I'm not that in chocolate, my favorite is blueberry cheese-cake!"

"Dear lico," God replied in a minute, " a. Guess you have seen `Lord of the rings`.... Try to watch it again if you have any confusion. b. I'm sorry about chocolate, and.... you are a difficult woman! ( I miss Eve.) c. As for blueberry cheese-cake, why don't you give a try on learning how to cook it by yourself? You'd enjoy the time and the taste than ever. Cheer up!"

“你什么时候开始吸烟的？” 尤伦更问

“每次我想戒的时候，我爸爸总会递过来一只，说----来，我们谈谈。” 我说。

“你父亲居然怂恿你吸烟？” 尤伦更问

“是，” 我说，“他认为我反正也解戒不了，不如陪他抽抽，作个烟友。”

“哦，我懂了。” 尤伦更说，“他把你也当儿子。。。你是独生子女。”

When lico met F online talking about articles of next issue. ( Wedding)

F: Is there anything you are interested in?

Lico: (F..k)  Come on, you know what I hate.　Do you think we need any more art-performance nowadays?

F: ......

Lico: I d like to go for 4 funerals instead of moving my ass to 1 wedding.

When Lico met Leo, talking about new icon of msn

Lico: What do you think? Is it too.....

Leo: Too pussy?

Lico: Anyway it looks great, I don't think a penis could get illustrated as beautifully as a pussy can.

Leo: I know nothing about pussy. I like penis!

Lico: I like it too!

Leo: We are penis addicts!

Lico: Yeah! yeah!! ....So for us penis addicts, there's another pic showing up soon.

  coming up soon, at TAKA Ishii gallery.

                                                                                   荒木经惟 作品

 

                     Go to take a look at 贝小戎's new entry. Have fun! Don't get too high!

 

 

When Lico met Damien, talking about hanging out again.------ps: they only talk in person or through cell, no msn, no skype, no emails, no phone.

Lico: Where are you exactly? Do you think I m a horse or yourself a Whrisper or something?

Damien: Still in the office....I tell you what, next Saturday, there will be a farewell party for me.

Lico: Excellent! Shall we come? Anri and I are probably hanging out together next weekend.

Damien: You guys please do not come!

Lico:......

Damien: You guys are too cool for that party. I d feel sorry if you come. Cool people never show up like that.

Lico: ( kao...)

Damien: I'll text you to see if its possible we go together after the farewell.

Lico: babie, I don't even have your cell mail address.

Damien: Our cool people don't need that normal contact. It d insult our great friendship.

   Rico和Lico走进一家酒吧

 

当Rico第一眼见到Lico时，他惊讶地以为自己看到了一个意大利时尚牺牲品----Lico双腿裹在Diesel牛仔裤里，扛着一个巨大的黑色Gucci包，正拎着一捆书，从光合作用书店摇摇晃晃地走出来。她四处张望，努力辨别着这花花世界的去往方向----Lico刚刚和另一个开着法国车，穿Diesel，过上了布尔乔亚式生活的闷骚男达人说了再见，他们在某个发了迹的画家开的云南餐馆吃了点东京价格的午饭。Lico觉得还没吃饱，她要店小二把剩菜全打包了。

 

Rico怀疑自己眼花了，或者以为人在他乡，梦回意朝，他小心地跟踪了一下Lico，Lico浑然不觉，她正着急着四处寻找ATM，刚才的那顿午饭和书几乎花掉了她钱包里所有的人民币。

 

Lico在广场上转来转去，Rico也在广场上转来转去。Lico注意到Rico----一头乱七八糟的棕色头发，斜挎着一个长挎包，目光迷茫。“准是个文青，”Lico心想，“不靠谱的人全世界溜达。”

 

当Lico和Rico第四次迎面相遇时，Rico觉得到该说Hello的时候了。他停下来，面带微笑，“Hallo。。。”

“ yeah，hi。。。为什么你老在这儿晃悠？我都见你好几次了。”Lico也停下来，微笑着，像个好心却狐疑的家庭女教师。

 

“哦，我也见你几次了，你干什么呢，在这儿。”Rico说。

 

“我需要汽油，”Lico说，“我在找加油站。”

“那，你的车呢。。。”Rico问，

  Lico挥挥手里的钱包，“在这儿。”

 

“我从意大利来，平面设计师，”Rico说，“来抢你们饭碗来的。”

 

“靠，”Lico心想，“意大利不出土匪便出文青。若是二者合一。。。”

 

“那好，看看我们的杂志。” Lico说，她从包里拿出本《a+a》，新的一期上有她的文章，“中国的杂志都这样。”Lico说，她暗自想，《a+a》全外国图片，蒙人不成问题。她同时想起了她的哲学挚友贝贝，刚才，他也和她一起吃云南菜来着。坐地铁，他拿本《三联》蒙脸打瞌睡；坐出租车，带本《三联》塞车后座书箱；就连Lico和他的第一次约会，虽然没有下雨，但他也拿着本《三联》，印着玫瑰红的封面，作为维特根斯坦的门徒，我们都是很含蓄很高深，不屑于言表的。

 

“哇，中国的设计，，，很棒啊。”Rico翻了翻，有点激动---北京真是遍地人才，随便搭个讪，都能遇到同行。

 

“嗯哼，”Lico说，“欢迎订阅。”她想到了把订阅热线印在名片上的另一个朋友，欧银，在某某 Times上码字的那位美国男文青，“yeah,,,, he just got a Japanese girlfriend who works in an Italian design company，shit。。。” Lico 心想，微微愤怒起来，对意大利好感顿失。 

 

 

（待继续胡编）

 

Ps不能瞎写，突然想起欧银知道这个博客，靠。。。。换汉语名字。

                      Two beds theory

 

When Lico met Leo, talking about staying at hotel in Beijing

 

Lico: Why do I have to pay two beds for myself, no single room there, mad….Do they think I have two asses or what?

 

Leo: Come on. Two beds are good for one-night-stand.

 

Lico: One-night-stand only needs a bigger bed!!

 

Leo: No. If the one is not as good as expected, then there is a bed for him.

 

Lico: lol! Good good!

 

Leo: Basically the single bed is already big enough for two. If you get only one bed, well, you d have no chance to escape the thing….

 

我说，这正是书读多了的女人的通病。任何简单的事都容易多想，和自己过不去，不弄得纷繁复杂不罢休。

达米安说，有道理，可我还是认为和书读得多少没多大关系，或许与天性有关。

我说，如何解释？

达米安说，有的女人就非常明了直接，一开始就给你信号，这场关系只因为I want to f*ck you。

我说，很女权很厉害啊。

达米安说，应该说---现实。都明白双方没时间唧唧歪歪。一夜的肌肤之亲彼此放松，早上太阳升起来了赶紧洗漱完毕提腿走人，大家都有账单要付，有车要养，没工夫耗在暧昧上。

我说，那么像我们可怜的E这样的女人呢？ 为什么她就做不到这样呢？ 明知对方和自己几乎没什么共同语言，还是拉拉扯扯，同时自我折磨。

达米安说， 哈！ The Lust！她不愿意承认而已。她放弃不了肉体的欢愉，还要奢望某种fantasy talk 来 turn her on。

我说，哇！漫长的前戏！

达米安说，这种fantasy talk 包括，假想的恋爱语言，假想的"我爱你"气氛。。。

我说，如果缺少这样的fantasy呢？

达米安说，就会成她现在的样子，忐忑不安，自我憎恶。 她欺骗自己，渴望用fantasy遮掩自己本来的欲望----她觉得自己属于智识份子，理应得到比性欲更多的，所谓---对智力的尊重。

我说，那么，为什么那个男人不配合配合尊重一下她的智力呢？ 她的确是有才华的女性啊！

达米安说，去白宫实习的莱温斯基没脑子吗？当男人身边已经不缺女人的时候，如果再看其他的女人，不过是为了满足自己更多的性饥渴和性幻想，借以放松解压。美国总统有那么好当的吗？ 希拉里是位典型的杰出的智识女性，可你看到她的时候，能想到去拿根雪茄吗？

我说，可现状就是这样，E没有被turn on，反而弄得turn off啦！ 说明这个男人很笨----不解风情，连小小的谎话都不会说。。。

达米安说，呵呵，没准这个男人反倒很聪明呢！ 喜欢fantasy是女人的通病，你们三岁时不就已经抱着布娃娃，开始玩办家家的游戏了么。你们不知男人看到这些心中是多么地充满恐惧。。。男人比你们现实，reality就是reality，affair就是affair，没时间耗在办家家的扯淡上。 再说了万一成了真的，多可怕。。。

我说，不要得意得太早。别忘了上次你也气呼呼地承认，"女人不过是自己假惺惺地爱上了这种游戏。"  你真以为如果E得到fantasy talk的配合，她就满足了么？我看未必。相反，说不定会吓个半死，逃之夭夭。

达米安说，怎么人都越来越贱呢。

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去年写外国男友系列的时候写写停停，到后来思维乐趣网站上的读者朋友们都说看不明白了。我想可能是人物太多了，除非一口气写完，否则来龙去脉连我都是糊涂的。

这次干脆就第一人称，而且几乎全为原文对话，今天的这篇，晚上我打电话给达米安不知怎么就说到这上面去了，我仅仅稍做翻译修改了下。

达米安有许多精辟的表达，我的英文不够用，有时他说出的词句，我不能立刻接上气，否则出来的效果不一样。

看我的博客的朋友，如果有意见希望交流，可写邮件给我 licototo@yahoo.co.jp 或直接留言博客上。

微妙な進み 

我靠，不懂数理化生，现代艺术看不懂。

都些数学家们在业余玩儿。

现代艺术向完全哲学化挺进。

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兄弟

Damien兄弟来玩，清早得开车送他去车站，北美朋友又来了，机场接人。

晚上弄了韩国火锅，我暴涨两大碗米饭，吃相全无，且素面朝天，Damien兄弟说，你，你，你！！！

葡萄酒，Damien尝一口居然能尝出产地。的确是美国的，还是加州的。 我怎么就不行呢。Cabernet Sauvignon。

边吃边聊天，聊到了一些小烦恼， Damien很严肃地offer了一些馊主意。 很有道理 though。 说到底我还是对自己不够狠。

我觉得好奇怪，男人看女人和女人看女人真的太不一样啦。

Damien认为，女人只要人认为你gorgeous，有吸引力，就应该心满意足，才华什么屁的都是bullshit。

我包着一口的饭，气急败坏地说，我，我，我，much more than being gorgeous！

Damien伸着懒腰道，谁有时间等你释放才华啊。 ahaha！

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After 5:30 am 

Then, I cant help thinking of this, how much would Damien's ex lose if they got to see what we talked tonight.

Thats quite interesting when my guy friends totally feel free to let me know what they truly think about THINGS which they HAVE to keep from their gfs.

So, Does "intimacy" really mean intimate?

I could enjoy this position that being a very good female friend to lots of my friends. no matter what gender they are. I dont feel I d lose anything, or to say I probably could earn much more by these relationships.

I wonder, what kind of woman/person I look like by the others. That Aileen talked with Damien about me that day, she said adadadffad, great, I love Alieen, I feel the same way; the other day Kazu was extremely surprised to get to know I m from China after we hang out with other friends several times, do I look like somewhat from alien? 

Honestly I m kind of confused.... I had a tough time to deal with two of my male students who had spread some feeling at a personal level that finally I had to decide to let them go. I was incredibly sad that it could be my fault, they are really nice person and I sincerely appreciate them very much for all the kindness they did for me. However, after that I never make-up on face to go to teach, or dress up as much as I usually do. What I want? I only want to be accepted as a professional career lady but not the one who d look cute, sexy, gorgeous whatever. But the truth is it d be obviously difficult in JAPAN where MEN rule the world.

Maybe I d just take things easy like what Damien said, no?

Tokyo is such a big superficial modern place that you look great, people would pay more attention to you, show more interests in you, everything could be easier in many ways; you look like an asshole, then, whatever you believe you are, people would treat you just as an asshole.

I asked, how could women do to get their peace back?

Damien: Be Samantha Jones!

( I began to forgive Ms Tea now. I started to understand much better why she hates being in Japan and has tried so hard to tell people she is AMERICAN.)  

(This shit just came out last night)

Kirara msn Lollipop

They were supposed to talk about economy， seriously.

Kirara: the japanese stock market is doing badly too

Lollipop: yeah...everywhere is down..but you know what, condoms are selling well!!!

Kirara: really？ why

Lollipop: nobody wants to make kids right now，obviously. yahoo said korean condom companies did great job last month! 18% up!

Kirara: cool !

Lollipop: Maybe I should think of going to apply for a job in a condom company. hehehe

Kirara: wow!!

Lollipop: safe place. very SAFE!

Kirara:  i bet it would be so cool to have a business card that says a condom company name on it
everyone you give it to will think, wow, this girl must be very safe and fun. someone asked my dad to write an article about how the global artmarket is in a jor recession now.i don't know if he is good enough of a writer.... but he says yeah, the auctions are disastrous.

Lollipop: haha, your father seems busy! besides being an art dealer.

Kirara: he says that he is worried about his job. since art is, in the end, a luxury

Lollipop: understand.but you know what, 草間弥生 was just sold very well last week

Kirara: where ?

Lollipop: I read newyork times dont remember in details

Kirara: yay- favorite newspaper/  i guess in a time like this, the safe artists will continue to sell. but i wonder which market. ny and europe markets are apparently really quiet

Lollipop: I agree that art yeah, a luxury. condom is much better. condoms can be art too! lets produce artsy condoms!!!!!

Then the two silly girls shared this link below:

The Top 10 Weirdest and Funniest Japanese Condoms

我有一个男生朋友，非常英俊，爱俏，在一家贸易公司上班， 年纪轻轻买了高级公寓房，每周一去体育馆打篮球，英姿飒爽，每周四找我学英语，愁眉苦脸。

他的老婆我见过两次，一次在饭局，一次在我家的爬梯上。

我吃了一惊，他的老婆又肥又丑，一喝酒全身发红，像只蒸熟了的大虾，看起来更胖了。

我很好奇，问他的上司，另一个我的朋友，---- 咦，他的品味很独到啊。

上司说，嘿嘿，他非胖不爱，拧巴。

我问， 那我这样的他看了奇丑无比了？

上司道， 有可能。 你一看就不在他的范围之内。

我深觉不解，在这个燕瘦为美，减肥盛行的当今，于是决定亲自问问这个篮球朋友。

他说，唉，我自个儿也奇怪呢。 有一天我终于恍然大悟啦！

什么？什么？， 我迫不及待地要知道这个答案。

一天我回老家好好地看了看我妈，天啊！ 我怎么忘了我妈就是个著名的胖子！我这是恋母！  他郁闷地说。

 

So, thats it. even if you thought these kind of questions are as shitty as can be, anyhow, you dont get the right answer yet that, rather say, you ve never seriously thought about in which you actually might be interested.

So I asked, I started as "I just read some stupid girl's blog...she had a question."

"Whats that? How stupid? She has a question or you have a question?"

"Of course its her! She was curious about left or right. I mean, about Mr. Di Ai C Kay."

"aha! Right....good question....what do you think."

"If I could have one, would I have asked u? Or even though I had one, I d probably be more curious about the others."

"It depends."

"like what? depends on what? person? situation? citizenship? races? or political orientation?"

 

日本語バージョンこれからです。

前の英語バージョン：

Why do you love me?
By lico Fang
 
The dialogue is based on a true story that She and He finally left each other.
When the one you love keeps asking you "Why do you love me?" please think about it more seriously.
 
Episode 1.
She:"Why do you love me?"
He:"Because you are beautiful, talented, kind.... I love you."
------>
She:"Why do you (have to) love me? I don't think I am that perfect for you...I don't think we are that perfect for each other."

Episode 2.
She:"Why do you love me?"
He:"Because you are beautiful, talented, kind.... I love you."
------->
She:"Why do you love me? Am I really desirable? Am I really intelligent? Tell me more the reasons you love me, I need to feel more confident about myself."

Episode 3.
She:"Why do you love me?"
He:"Because you are beautiful, talented, kind.... I love you."
------->
She:"Why do you love me? Are you sure its love but not something else? Staying with me makes you feel loved that you need most to heal through your own difficulties....I love you too, but you are just too selfish, my dear."

Episode 4.
She:"Why do you love me?"
He:"Because you are beautiful, talented, kind.... I love you."
------->
She:"Why do you love me? I love you so much but what I can see is always an unhappy you....Does my love mean helpless to you? If so, why do you love me?"

Episode 5.
She:"Why do you love me?"
He:"Because you are beautiful, talented, kind.... I love you."
------->
She:"Why do you love me? Exactly, it is "Why do I love you?" I wonder. Why loving you makes me so tired? Why loving you more hurting myself more? Why do I have to love you? I could live much happier without you. And you could do the same though you haven't realized it yet. "

Thanks bo. : )

ps. I just hate it that when I told one of my friend I wrote this little piece he even didnt really ask more about details but only said like why you are so 小资. Why is that. I bet he hates ppl speak other languagues. oh wait, if I told him I wrote in Cambodian/Khmer, what he d say then? So how about Italian?

 

 左手马蒂斯，右手Modigliani。 Metro风景。

中午，睡眼惺忪的Lollipop从Cocoa家回来。

Mr Donut 我担心，所以过来看看。

Lollipop 有什么好担心的，昨晚玩得太晚了，就睡Cocoa家了。

Mr Donut 她现在心情如何。到底怎么回事？

Lollipop 我不喜欢八卦，以后再告诉你。

Mr Donut 她家那么小，你们怎么睡的呢。

Lollipop 挤挤呗。我们是发小，换衣服都可以当面换的。好着呢。

Mr Donut Heeee....What can I say。

Lollipop 嘿，我发现她的胸居然比我的大。上中学时可不是这样的。

Mr Donut Did you see that?

Lollipop Yeah, I saw her when she's going to take shower. heehee. And I said, yours are bigger than mine!

Mr Donut Well.....I dont think I d say the same thing to my best friend......

　コクヌストモドキという甲虫のオスは同性愛行為に及ぶことがある。この行為によって、実際には繁殖の機会が増えていることが新たな研究で明らかになった。

　コクヌストモドキ（Tribolium castaneum）は小麦の害虫で、温帯地域に広く生息している。この虫の同性愛行為自体は、数十年前から指摘されていた。だが、その理由については、進化の観点から見て説明のつかない謎として残されていた。進化の理論に基づけば、オスはメスとの生殖行為にエネルギーを集中するはずだからだ。
...

这篇不算，时间倒错了。

但太好玩了，权当笔记。

Lollipop msn 某中国男 讲到中东某邪教

中国男： 我以前的那个美国女友啊。。。

Lollipop： 上次的不是西班牙的吗，您也全球化？

中国男： 我复杂着呢。

Lollipop： 继续

中国男： 就是因为她基督教最后分手了。

Lollipop： （琢磨着这中国男向来以让世界充满色和标榜好色著称。） 是她没让您丫得手吧。基督徒，那个派的？

中国男： 她说结婚前不能接吻！

Lollipop： （笑翻到在地，嘿，一物降一物。） Wow～

中国男： 她回国前让她的同屋女友问我 还爱不爱她。

Lollipop ：（想象着中国男有苦说不出，打碎牙齿往肚里吞的情景） 您咋说？

中国男： 我告诉她，我也是个人。

Lollipop ：哈哈哈哈哈。

中国男： 我那时真想求她暂时忘记上帝三秒钟

Lollipop： 那不行，上帝天上盯着紧呢。。。。。您丫就三秒？

 

他脚踩桐木木屐，穿着一件藏蓝的和服，腰带是更深的近乎于黑色的墨蓝，在左胯低低地系成一个朴素的小蝴蝶结，灵俊动人。

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